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So how much did they get paid?

Yes i kinda dislike it as it is a source of problems and just accepting it wouldn’t really solve any issues.

Sadly I’ve been trying to fix it for years, problems probably started or at least become noticable over a decade ago. By now i have already exhausted approved medical and physical means in trying to fix it, even started replacement therapy eventually as test levels were on the low end even despite doing as much as possible to boost those.

While it has had rather good outcome on overall physical and mental health, it hasn’t had any effect on libido.

Haven’t yet delved into balck market or anabolic steroids territory, yet and of course therapy is still left, but that’s rather expensive and social stigma is kinda strong on that subject. Especially for a guy who seemingly shouldn’t have any issues regarding it.

Fair, reactively getting turned on kinda fits under outside influence part. Though cant tell anything about the bond/connection aspect, as thats way too vague and complicated for me.

Well yeah, little bit of that too. That’s what probably makes it more confusing.

Others are saying grey or ace. Why demi then?

Damnit, why i always circle back to that one.

Under what does someone fall, who regularly forgets that sex exists, immune to flirting, needs external reminders/influence and effort to get in to the mood, cant wrap their head around attraction at all and completely hates the hand their dealt with?

Cant tell about women as when i was at my height of around 100kg 175-177cm, overweight, no muscle. There weren’t that many women in my environment to accurately gauge any treatment. That was some time before covid.

During that time i lost ~25kg. Down to ~72-73kg and that was the time when thanks to covid client services jobs were starting to suffer and there was influx of women to my field.

No treatment difference from men up until that point.

But as i managed to implement a decent resistance training routine along with diet control over time i packed on muscle mass as well with fat loss.

By now I’m ~83kg, 15-17% bodyfat, clearly muscular even by regular gym goers standard.

That did eventually change treatment from guys.

They became more forgiving, friendly and maybe respectful. I have ADHD, so the amount of mistakes i make hasn’t changed, but if previously i was scolded for the same mistakes then now I’m rather easily forgiven and told “no worries, shit happens”. In addition any advice i say is heeded actually and people to come up to me more regularly to ask for help

Edit: forgot to add in my wife. While the overall treatment hasn’t changed as we have been together for around 14 years, so all body types, from skeleton(~60kg in early adulthood) to overweight to muscular. She is most definitely more attracted and “hornier” now when I’m muscular than other times in our life.

I wouldn’t say tha there is even sense if relief. Theres just disappointment due to lacking sense of accomplishment or any great/good feelings regarding it and after that brain automatically starts to pick apart why it actually wasn’t an accomplishment and what i did wrong with it.

Warrior, due the simplisticy and straightforwardness of it. Big sharp stick always works.

In addition, from fantasy, mountain of muscle coverd in metal swinging a huge sword or an axe is just awesome.

Thank you, yeah i have heard it before and over the years it has been rather instrumental in helping to create a some form of a higher layer of reasoning I guess. Something that stops the negative spiraling getting out of hand, otherwise it can lead to depression again and that wasn’t pleasant, wouldn’t recommend.

Self hatred to a degree is still there, sometimes more, sometimes less, but there’s an overarching voice of reason that can see it’s irrational and not based in reality.

Yes it might become an issue further down the line, but that’s a problem I’m going to deal with when it happens. If i can squeeze out a few more years or even decades, it has been worth it. Not that there are anymore risks to mental breakdowns. Those were usually caused by alcohol and I’ve significantly reduced that intake.

Yeah, and yes it was just stupid random sub dedicated to one of the most hated character of Warhammer 40k universe.

It did got banned oddly just before i started to get warnings and temp bans in rather rapid succession, for pretty much the same behavior iv had been already doing for years.

I assume they launched some new form of detection algorithm in the first half of this year.

Of course demons are an over exaggeration, but still unsolvable or hard to solve problems non the less.

Thanks, I’ll take a look at it. Though haven’t been able to play and focus on story based games for ages, so i cant promise it will be anytime soon.

Glad I don’t play sports titels, but bloody hell. In addition to paying for a full game and getting bunch of MTXs and season passes. Now we need to suffer through ads as well.

Why the hell are we even paying for a game in the first place. I’ve seen free mobile games with a better approach.

If I’m paying i don’t want to see any ads, how hard is that to get through to CEOs?

Not currently taking, just tested few years ago. Was somewhere between 90-100kg at the time.

Only concerta(long release) was available. Tried from 18mg to 72mg(max 54+18) and even went beyond max safe dosage in my own up to 160mg. Only thing it did was raise my heart rate eventually, make palms sweaty and significant hit on a wallet because max allowed dosage is 72mg while only 54mg is sold. So had to buy 2 bottles, each costing around 55-60€ with absolutely no government or insurance support. Most expensive M&M candies I’ve ever bought and last straw in trying to get therapy for ADHD. No noticable mental benefits or any effects whatsoever.

No, i live in the 21. century and all that is done digitally. The only calls that are coming are pre-arranged

Sry, i lost the manual to deciphering bodies signals or it was never sent. Over time I’ve managed to figure ot the most basic ones, but thats about it.

HAHAHAHA, fuck no. I deserve all that the fucked up brain can conjure up and some more. But these are my demons, they are trapped inside that skull with me as much i am trapped with those. It’s eternal conflict and those shall be kept in bay. Hypocritically i would never treat anyone else the way i do myself.

You can find any subject and i will rather easily find a way why i suck at it.

Yeah sure therapy could help, but i suck at struggling as well as those problems aren’t severe enough or out of control to require professional help. There are countless number of people with much more disruptive problems who requore help much more than i do.

So in conclusion. Generally rather bad, self hatred runs deep, but it’s under control and i revel in it.