The reason I wanted to post this is because I want to remind others that the only thing that matters is the now and then.

Why? I was not always asexual, and it has been over 10 years since I experienced confirmed feelings of being sexually attracted. No trauma, my hormones levels are the same as other people’s, and no confusion as in I can look back and confirm that I did experienced it. Essentially, my sexuality has literally changed on it own over a decade ago. I can’t explain why my sexual orientation simply changed on it own, but it did.

With that being said, I would be lying if I say I am gray-sexual as it implies a chance. It would be lying to say I has been always asexual as I can’t simply explain away what I felt and that gets more true as I try to question it.

So, I was allosexual. I’ll remain asexual for the rest of my life. I can’t change that. That’s my future. I did not chose that.