I guess I don’t think of the higher agencies as cops, even though they are. And those higher agencies (FBI, NSA, CIA, etc.) don’t strike me as the type of groups who want to keep the public informed—quite the contrary, actually. I would expect local cops to praise themselves if they got something right, sure.
My son once peed when he was getting changed and managed to hit himself in the face. He never did it again after that. Win!
Anyway, hugs, you’re in the thick of it, but as everyone says, it does get better.